continued from When God Parted Our Red Sea (Part 1)
…A few hours after, she came. I told her about what the neuro-pedia said. She told me to pray, and I told her I didn’t want to because I think it’s futile. She explained to me that God wants us to ask from Him, to put our faith in Him, to be closer to Him. Before Li’Ann left, she laid her hands upon your lump, and we prayed. That jumpstarted my deeper relationship with Him.
Jan. 31, 2012
Right after Li’Anne left, I started to pray. Other relatives called, and I still cried whenever I talked about it. But then when I was alone, I’d pray again. I finally took you from your nannies, looked at your face, touched your lump, and prayed while I cried.
The following morning (Sunday), we were able to get your X-ray, urinalysis, and CBC results.
While were waiting for Dr. Resa’s arrival, a bibo girl with her mom was waiting with us. The girl kept on singing Bruno Mars’ “Just the Way You Are” (everytime I hear that song, I’m reminded of this moment at the hospital). Exhausted and sad as I may be, I couldn’t help but be amused with the kid. And then I told God, “God, maging ganito kaya si Raviv? Masayahin, pakanta-kanta at normal? Please po.”
Then, Dr. De Jesus arrived, checked your results, and cleared you–you were OK to be sedated.
She then gave instructions what we should do next.
I was supposed to call Asian ASAP to schedule your MRI. The anes-pedia Dr. Resa contacted was Dr. Laguna. Dr. Laguna’s schedule at Asian was Tuesdays and Thursdays. Dr. Laguna also told Dr. Resa that we should already be at Asian very early, because she prefers sedating babies early in the morning. This is because babies’ (and I guess even adults’) stomachs are supposed to be empty when they’re given anesthesia. Dapat daw ‘yung last meal ay four hours before the anesthesia. This worried me, because you were (and still is) such a voracious milk drinker.
When we got home, I called the Asian Hospital to have your MRI scheduled. However, it was a Sunday and no one can confirm my request. I was told to call the following day.
I just prayed and prayed and prayed. Almost every waking hour I had was spent talking to God. I asked for forgiveness for the sins I’ve committed; I told Him that I trust in Him; I thanked Him for all that I have. And then I thanked Him because I know He will help us.
I loved talking to God, and making up for “lost time”. Every time you wake up to feed in the wee hours in the morning, I take it as a time to commune with God. Aside from praying, I read the Bible and played Christian songs. I can’t explain it, but I always felt a sense of peace afterwards. I felt Him comforting me, telling me to entrust everything to Him. I really felt His presence. Raviv, our God is a living God, and He is ALWAYS there.
The following day, I called the Asian Hospital. Of course, we wanted to have you MRIed ASAP so I asked whether you could be scheduled the following day (Tuesday). But before I even called, I had this feeling that you will be MRIed on Thursday and not on Tuesday. I felt God telling me that He wanted to postpone the MRI for a few more days because He wanted us to spend more time together. So when the staff at Asian told me that there were no 7 a.m. slots on Tuesday, I actually smiled and did not beg him to singit you. I knew it! That should have dampened my spirits, right? But no, it proved further that God was with me and loved spending time with me. I was told to bring you to Asian before your scheduled sedation/MRI so an anesthesiologist could check you.
I kept praying. I told God, “God, I believe that Raviv has either meningocele or encephalocele. But what I believe more is that the MRI results will show he doesn’t have it, because by that time, you will have already healed Him. I don’t doubt the competence of Raviv’s neuro-pedia, but what I shouldn’t doubt even more is Your power.” Your Tita Li’Anne also told me to pray for your sedation to go well; for God to bless every apparatus and hands that will touch you.
The following day (Tuesday), your Tita Rhia Frio came to see you to pray for you. She asked for your Tatay to join us as we pray for you. After a few hours, your Tita Li’anne, Tita Monet, and I had our Small Group Meeting. I told them that I had a strong feeling your MRI result will say that you have no meningocele/encephalocele, despite the fact that your neuro-pedia’s “70% chance na meningocele/encephalocele yan” kept on reverberating in my head. I told them that I felt God promising me that. I remember your Tita Monet saying, “Dew, bilib ako sa faith mo, pero worried ako baka hindi pala ‘yun ang will ni God, baka ma-depress ka. Pray ka rin na if ever positive ‘yung result, that God will give you the strength to accept it, and maging successful ‘yung operation.” I told her I’d do it, but I had a different feeling. I was really positive. And you know how pessimistic I am. Before they left, we prayed for you again. Tita Li’Anne suggested that I be bold about my faith and invite your Tatay to pray with me as I pray over you. I did just that every night before your MRI.
The next day (Wednesday), we brought you to Asian for an available anesthesiologist to check you. The anesthesiologist who checked you was so very nice (too bad I forgot her name! I’ll try to check who she is). She looked so gentle and compassionate. She cleared you and asked why you were to undergo an MRI. She told me, “Pray lang kayo.” Again, I felt God’s presence in her. She even praised your nose, “Grabe ang tangos ng ilong!” she said.
Last part to be continued tomorrow.
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