Kasi raw, baka maaksidente ‘pag hindi sinundan. That was the hirit of the party host/magician-clown on Raviv’s birthday. But of course, everyone at the party knew that that wasn’t what the clown meant (hindi mo gets? OK fine–baka hindi ka pa makatulog! 🙂 It means dapat sundan na ng kapatid. Hehe)
Upon hearing that probably-cliched joke, I remember shaking my head vigorously—no no no no no! Not yet!!!
Contrary to what most people advise–“Naku sundan n’yo na habang sanay pa kayong magpuyat!” or “OK ‘yung sabay silang lalaki para isang hirap lang, hindi ‘yung back to square 1 uli kayo“, Randy and I both want to be able to really focus on Raviv. We want to revel Raviv’s “toddlerhood”; we don’t want to miss out on anything as Raviv is at his cutest! We are going to have another child not because we want to get over the torture of having a new baby soon, because we are going to have another baby because we WANT to have a new baby! Most of all, we want Raviv to want to have a younger sibling–‘yun bang siya na ang magre-request na gusto na niya ng kapatid.
Though honestly, selfish as it may sound, my greatest motivation NOT to get preggy again is because I could still vividly recall how hellish my first trimester had been. Whenever I get dizzy, I shudder at the thought that I’d relive my hell months as a pregnant woman. I remember swearing off pregnancy–that’s how difficult it had been! Talagang ayoko, ayoko, at ayoko nang mabuntis uli!
But two sights are making me change my mind–sights that eclipse my memory of all-day (not just morning!) sickness, of walking like a duck, of my excessive salivating, and of really dark kili-kili.
Exactly, what are these sights?
Ain’t my boy the sweetest? You see weeks ago, my sister-in-law Ruth had a guest–she had a friend over, and that friend of hers brought her half-Nigerian (?) baby along (note: Baby pa ‘yan--she’s just big because of her African heritage). My Raviv was just so ecstatic upon seeing the baby! He kept on pointing to the room where the baby was, and kept on saying, “Baby! Baby!” After he was brought to that room and was returned to me, I asked his nanny what he was doing with the baby. His nanny just replied that he kept still, and just watched the baby! Hindi naglilikot! Actually, even when he was already with me, he again kept on saying, “Baby, baby!” Since I also missed carrying a baby, I borrowed the baby from my sister-in-law (the baby’s mom left to buy something outside) and brought her to the living room where Raviv sometimes plays. There, I was surprised because Rapid, Raging Raviv suddenly became all docile! Although he excitedly brought out his toys to share with the baby girl, he patiently showed the baby how to play with the toys! Basta it was really amazing how gently he was treating the baby girl! It made my heart melt to think he’d be a loving, caring Kuya to his future baby sister (please please please–I want a girl!!!)
Do you know why these images make me want to forget three months of all-day sickness, of six months of walking like a duck, of 48 hours of labor, of six sleepless months, and of (probably) two years of losing weight?
If you guessed “the thought of having a cute baby”, you’re wrong. May cute baby na ako ‘no—si Raviv!
If you guessed “Alangan namang ‘yung thought na magsha-shopping ka ng frilly baby girl accessories?!? Ang babaw niyan ha!“…
Well, erm…yes…‘yan nga ang dahilan! Every time I shop for Raviv’s clothes, I always, always, always get sidetracked! I can’t help but make a detour to the baby girls’ clothes and accessories section! Tapos tatanong-tanong ako sa saleslady kung magkano, tapos ie-entertain ako. Tapos itatatanong–“Ilang taon na po ba ‘yung baby girl ninyo? Ikukuha ko po kayo ng sizes.” Tapos sasabihin ko, “Ay wala. Boy ‘yung anak ko.” Tapos aalis na ‘yung saleslady, feeling ko with a smirk on her face. Then I would gently caress the cotton and satin fabric of the clothes, as if telling them, “Uy, wait for my baby girl ah!”
So yes, those sights motivate me to want to brave facing pregnancy again.
At nakakahiya mang aminin, ‘yung Sight #2 ang bigger motivation ko if ever I do decide to get preggy again. So please God, give us a baby girl next. Kahit after 2-3 years pa.
Otherwise, kawawa naman sina Tatay Randy at Baby Raviv, kasi ‘pag hindi ako nagka-baby girl…
There’ll be more these I’m A Boy!!! moments!
What about you readers? When do you plan to have another child? Why? Is there a specific gender you’re praying for? Please tell me your thoughts!
Tell me what you think!
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