I would like to thank everyone who took time to greet us on our 15th anniversary (not wedding anniversary) yesterday. 💗
Apologies for the late response–Randy and I actually had our 15th anniversary date at 2:30 a.m. in the ER of a hospital. That’s because I had an extremely painful 😖 hyperacidity that made me unable to sleep. I slept at 9 p.m on Thursday night because I was doggone tired—I’ve been teaching for 2 weeks straight without any day off (and you’ll know how tiring that is if you watch me teach) in far venues that require me to wake up very early every freaking day.
But after just an hour of sleep, I woke up because my stomach was hurting like crazy. Randy my hero immediately went to the pharmacy to buy me medicine. Yet despite chewing three tablets of Gaviscon and my second helping of Omega slather on my belly, I was still tossing and turning and couldn’t sleep a wink.
Finally at 2:30 a.m., I begged Randy to bring me to the ER. I was given first aid (tinurukan ako ng gamot) and after half an hour or less, I felt much better. I was brought home and I was finally able to sleep. But not for long.
At 5 a.m. yesterday–after only two hours of sleep–I had to wake up again because I had a class in San Pedro. It was my first day of meeting these kids.
To be honest, I thought I couldn’t do it. I was so so so tired, sleepy, and in pain. But I couldn’t let these kids down. I just can’t. I couldn’t even bring myself to teach mediocrely–I was still in my “performance level”. During the times I thought all my energy was consumed (I couldn’t even drink any energy drink because of my hyperacidity), I would tell myself that I can. “O, 5 hours na lang!” Then, “O, 4 hours na lang! Naka-1/3 ka na!” And then finally, my classes ended with my students looking happy. My colleagues congratulated me, but told me I was looking pale.
I was in a zombie-like trance when I got home, but my spirits lifted when I saw these lovely flowers carried by Randy:
Today, I taught for only 3 hours. After my not-so-tiring day, Randy and I went out to watch a movie with Raviv & Thea and did a bit of shopping. I’m going to have a day off after 14 straight days tomorrow, and I’m over the moon with happiness that I’m even allowing Raviv and Thea stay up late and eat ice cream. Ang saya-saya!!!
Now that I think of it, I couldn’t help but realize that my ordeal yesterday is no different from the instances that my relationship with Randy became shaky. We’ve been together for 15 years, bey-beh! Almost half my life, I’ve spent with Randy!
I realize that during the times when you feel like you can no longer go any further, you just have to shake off the negative thoughts and tell yourself that you can. Because you really can. Pastor Jomar, who officiated our wedding, kept reminding everyone during the wedding ceremony that “Marriage is hard work.” It’s not a walk in the park.
Yesterday, when I felt like I was about to faint from sheer exhaustion and pain, I would remind myself that I made a commitment to teach these kids, in the same way that I made a commitment to Randy. Hyperacidity and lack of sleep are not enough for me to renege on it, in the same way that fights and misunderstandings should not renege us from our promise.
Then the eager faces, smiles and even applause of my students helped push me to teach that the normal, energized Dewmaine does. Just as Randy’s random kind words and loving acts encourage me that our love is always worth fighting for. 💐
Again, thanks for all the greetings! And I also thank my students for your kind words and appreciation. You guys make an otherwise exhausting job feel like it’s the best job ever!
And Babe, thank you for the wonderful 15 years. You spoil me rotten, but you’re also the one who always pushes me, making me a better version of myself. I love you, always will.
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