I should be working now but I can’t. I am so down. Ironic, because in my last post I was expressing how very happy I was. But I got a phone call early this afternoon with terrible news. Dears, ibigay n’yo muna sa akin ‘to, ayoko munang i-share. Baka naman (sana!) wala lang. What’s holding me together now is God’s promise.
Acts 16:31, New International Version (NIV)
31 They replied, “Believe in the Lord Jesus, and you will be saved—you and your household.”
Anyway, I’m trying to be positive today amidst the negativity. For one, I’m looking at this as an opportunity to rekindle my fire to be in His presence, just like what happened with Raviv before. These past days I’ve been backsliding…this is probably brought by the fact that I haven’t been attending weekly Bible studies. The schedule of my group went from Thursdays to Saturdays and you all know how crazy my Saturdays are. But I hope I’ll be able to attend again. You know, attending these groups are a lot of help. When you’re in a pickle, your group mates would not give you just ANY kind of advice but advice that’s from the Lord. Your fire for the Lord also shines more brightly every meeting as you hear and witness how God works in your group mates’ lives. Being a Christian is tough—your group mates are there to cheer you on and remind you that everything is worth it.
Anyway, to keep my mind off that problem, I took time to check messages on Facebook that I have not opened since my birthday. And as usual, they cheered me up. Truly, when the going gets tough, kind words from appreciative people keep me going. The gloominess in me was diminished. For one, I am surprised again that my blogging makes several people happy. I blog because it’s really therapeutic to me—it’s an outlet for me to take whatever’s on my chest: extreme happiness, extreme anger, extreme loneliness…whatever! And after blogging I usually feel a lot better. Ergo when other people express how my blog also relieves their stress, I feel an extra surge of glee. So indulge me in sharing with you the messages I opened today that made me feel my special day is far from over yet.